I am to my beloved, and my beloved is to me
Song of Songs 6:3
In every relationship, there are times when the "male" or giving
partner takes the initiative, and times when the "female" or receiving
partner is the first to express her feelings and thereby stimulate the feelings
of her partner.
The question of who takes the initiative has a profound effect on the nature
of the relationship. For though the end result is that both of them express
their love for each other, the initiating partner determines the nature of the
other's response. When initiated by the giving partner, the response stimulated
in the recipient will likewise be a "masculine" response; when
initiated by the recipient, the giver's response will also be of a
"feminine" nature, for it will be influenced and shaped by the source
of its arousal.
In Song of Songs, which explores the relationship between G-d and Israel
through the metaphor of the love between a bride and her groom, we find
expressions of both male-initiated and female-initiated love. In one verse, the
narratress proclaims, "My beloved is to me, and I am to him" (Song of
Songs 2:16). In another, she says, "I am to my beloved, and my beloved is
to me" (ibid. 6:3).
There are times when the Almighty showers us with love and kindness, arousing
in us a response in kind ("My beloved is to me, and I am to him"). But
there are also times in which we take the initiative, expressing our love and
devotion to Him despite His apparent distance from us, thereby awakening in Him
His love for us ("I am to my beloved, and my beloved is to me").
It may be argued that the divinely-initiated love produces a higher and
loftier love than the love which is initiated by ourselves. When the initial
arousal comes from G-d, it is a show of love that is as infinite and sublime as
its source, arousing in us feelings that we could never have produced ourselves.
Nevertheless, such a love cannot be said to be truly our own. We have been
overwhelmed by something that is infinitely greater than ourselves, and our own
response is likewise "larger than life," bearing little relation to
who and what we are in our natural state.
On the other hand, the love we generate ourselves may be less magnificent and
glorious, but it is a deeper and truer love. It is an integral love -- a love
that comes from within and expresses our deepest yearnings. And when we awaken
such a love in ourselves, G-d responds in kind, showing us an integral, intimate
love -- a love that embraces us as we are, rather than transporting us to
sublime yet alien peaks of spirituality and transcendence.
The Acronym
The month of Elul is a time of special closeness between the Divine Groom and
His bride Israel. This is alluded to by the fact that, in Hebrew, the first
letters of the verse "I am to my beloved and my beloved is to me" (ani
ledodi v'dodi li) spell the word Elul.
It is significant that the acronym for Elul comes from the verse that
describes a love that is initiated by the bride, rather than the verse in which
the initial show of love comes from the groom. For despite its designation as a
time for special closeness between G-d and man, Elul is a most
"ordinary" month, conspicuously devoid of festivals and holy days. In
other words, Elul is not a time in which we are "lifted up" from our
daily routine to the more spiritual state of a festival day; rather, it is a
time in which we remain in our natural environment as material beings inhabiting
a material life.
For the month of Elul, whose astral sign is the sign of betulah
("virgin"), is the month of the bride. Elul is a time when the
initiative comes from our side of the relationship, and the divine response to
our love is one that relates to us as finite, material beings and embraces our
natural self and personality.
